I had a dream last night that at first disturbed me and at second and third glance made me realize something.  I'm going to be getting married in 2009 to a wonderful guy named Jason.  Can't wait... definitely excited.  Prior to beginning dating Jason our freshman year of college, I had dated several guys throughout high school.  The last relationship ended badly and up until today I had always regarded it in that light... today though, things changed..  I realized that while the ending was a sour note, the beginning and most of the middle wasn't that sour... he was someone that at the time of the relationship I cared a great deal about and it took me until now to remember that.  So to you, with no impliance of anything other than apology, I'm sorry that we ended the way we did.  I'm sorry that I have remembered you for the bad things and forgotten the good times and the growth.  I hope, that if for some freak reason he were to see this, he would understand and maybe, on a chance, accept it.  That's all.

 

 

the end.

I got the news today that one of our freshman from last year died... he had cancer.  I didn't know him, I knew his name and his mailbox (I file mail).  I knew he had friends who shaved their heads in support and that he now has a Facebook filled with well wishes and love... it states him as in a relationship and you wonder, what does she do now?  When does she take it down?  I cannot begin to imagine.  Even though I didn't know him, I cried.  There is something terribly sad and bittersweet...

 

We voted to shut the heat off a couple of weeks ago because we were frying in a heated room while it was 80+ degrees outside.  The finally shut it off and we were comfortable for a couple of days.  Then MO had to go and flip out and we are freezing out asses off... and they turn the heat back on because that would take to much effort... no joke.  It's the same for the art building... we freeze... I pay entirely too much money to live in a place that we are supposed to have space heaters, it's below freezing and they refuse to turn the boilers back on.  RETARDOMUNGO!